Partial Tears

I don’t like crying. I don’t really understand the idea of a good cry. When I cry, my nose gets red and runny, my head aches, and I rarely feel better after shedding tears; there doesn’t seem to be much good about it. I know crying is healthy, but I avoid it as much as possible.

Two weeks ago, I came down with Bell’s Palsy, which is a temporary paralysis of one side of the face. It is a lesson in patience as you just have to wait for whatever irritated the facial nerve to do its thing and heal up. Needless to say, I have shed a few tears lately. The odd thing is that I only cry out of my healthy eye. The eye on the paralyzed side of the face will not shed any tears.

This has been a bit of a revelation for me, a very tangible reminder that crying is something God built into us. How often do we shy away from something that is healthy for us? We avoid veggies, exercise, and we could all drink more water. Can it be that I am avoiding something that is actually good for me just because it feels uncomfortable?

This has given new meaning to the many times in the Bible when someone would cry out to the Lord. I often thought of those as times of a loud cry or shout. That loud shout or cry seems so bold and powerful, but tears are tender and vulnerable. Could it have been times of tears that led to repentance and a renewed relationship with their Heavenly Father?

Over the years, I am so amazed how God takes time to teach me about the good things He has made, and how those things can bring us closer to Him. Can it be that God is longing for me to bring my red, runny nose and tear-stained face into His presence just to draw closer to Him? Perhaps there is some good in crying after all.

Bonnie Piovesan, Church Administrator


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    Judy hays says

    My grandmother had Bell’s palsy and despite what you say it is not painless. I am still amazed are the way you are walking with the Lord to all of this and it is such a witness to all of us of how Jesus is with us every step of the way. Thank you so much for sharing with us. I know that you are in the hearts and prayers everyone in our congregation. We are so blessed to have you and have you share your wonderful Walk with Jesus.

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      Bonnie says

      Thank you Judy,
      You are always so encouraging to me. Thank you for praying for me, I feel so loved and cared for.

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    Katie Kelso says

    Thank you for sharing this. Your insights resonate deeply in me. I’m praying for your healing and thanking God that you are here to help lead our flock.
    Katie Kelso

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      Bonnie says

      Hello Katie,
      I am grateful to be here with you and the 1st Pres family. Thank you so much for praying for me.

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    Bev Turner says

    Thank you for sharing and I want you to know you are in my prayers. My younger brother had Bell’s palsy at the same time he was being treated for prostate cancer. We are blessed to have you and know you.

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      Bonnie says

      Hello Bev,
      In the past two weeks, I have met so many people who have either had or known some one with Bells. I so appreciate your prayers, I feel blessed to be here.

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    Lynn Sumey says

    Hi Bonnie. Just got a chance to read this… what a great lesson! Although I do believe in a good cry, there are certainly other good things I avoid, so this was very relevant.
    I leave you with very special words my Dad (also a cryer) said to me before he passed, “I’m at my best when I cry”. Could that mean we’re at our best when we cry out to the Lord?!

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