I don’t like crying. I don’t really understand the idea of a good cry. When I cry, my nose gets red and runny, my head aches, and I rarely feel better after shedding tears; there doesn’t seem to be much good about it. I know crying is healthy, but I avoid it as much as possible.
Two weeks ago, I came down with Bell’s Palsy, which is a temporary paralysis of one side of the face. It is a lesson in patience as you just have to wait for whatever irritated the facial nerve to do its thing and heal up. Needless to say, I have shed a few tears lately. The odd thing is that I only cry out of my healthy eye. The eye on the paralyzed side of the face will not shed any tears.
This has been a bit of a revelation for me, a very tangible reminder that crying is something God built into us. How often do we shy away from something that is healthy for us? We avoid veggies, exercise, and we could all drink more water. Can it be that I am avoiding something that is actually good for me just because it feels uncomfortable?
This has given new meaning to the many times in the Bible when someone would cry out to the Lord. I often thought of those as times of a loud cry or shout. That loud shout or cry seems so bold and powerful, but tears are tender and vulnerable. Could it have been times of tears that led to repentance and a renewed relationship with their Heavenly Father?
Over the years, I am so amazed how God takes time to teach me about the good things He has made, and how those things can bring us closer to Him. Can it be that God is longing for me to bring my red, runny nose and tear-stained face into His presence just to draw closer to Him? Perhaps there is some good in crying after all.
Bonnie Piovesan, Church Administrator